In my new encounters with the local senior center, I am looking at other elderly people in a different way, wondering what health issues they have and how they cope with them.
- Are they in hidden pain?
- Do they stay home because they are too ill to go out?
- Is there anything that can change what our body tells us we can't do?
- Is the future a daily wait for that final day when we meet GOD?
- Will we all be forced to die because we cost too much to be kept alive?
When I started using one of those weekly pill dispensers, I called it my first one. I was taking vitamins with it. I recently received a new one when picked up my medicine refills... I call it the GIANT version... and I suppose there will be a COLOSSAL size. I don't know if I like that idea.
I have come to realize that health problems can't be avoided at this point in my life. I can try to make my health as good as it can be, but I can't make all my health problems disappear. Becoming more and more sedentary, my weight increasing to a place I don't like it to be, not being able to go to doctors, not being able to work, not looking like I had these problems to cope with, and all the general issues that go with decreasing health. It has been quite a difficult time for me. I am sure it is similar to the changes that age brings to every life.
I have missed my healthy days... being able to walk long distances, ride a bike, carry my groceries without thinking I am going to have a heart attack. I keep trying to revive my past, but haven't discovered the path there yet. I'm still looking for the best foods I can afford, the best exercise I can accomplish. I dream I will one day be thin again. :-)
It isn't so bad getting older in years... I just hate this new challenge to be as healthy as I can be when my body isn't working as good as I want it to.
